Nowadays, I find myself idle, which unfortunately for me, gives me more time to ponder on what’s going on in my sad, pathetic life. Some five years ago or so, I hardly had the moment to think, hardly had the time to even shower being the mechanical robot that I was in the field that I chose to make a living out of…..back then, I was pretty sure I wished I’d get on with it and leave that kinda life ( with the promise that if I did pull through I am sure to be as happy as a bee, certain to be so contented with my life)…back when, I wished I would have most of the time to myself, wished I could appreciate more the other side of life other than the four corners of the facility where I worked 24/7…well almost 24/7…..and yet,now that I am here…now that I did it and I have most of my time to myself…now I’m pretty sure I wish I can go back to those times when I hardly had the time to think!! Confusing, ain’t it? Or is this just a sign that there is something troubling me, enough for me to do away with much thinking….or probably I am just bored with my everyday life minus the pressure……but who wants pressure anyway? Human beings….just can’t get enough…never get satisfied with what life has to offer…and i'm one of 'em!
(Written at a time when I wanted to get busy to take my mind off bad thoughts)
meg havana
09 Nov 06
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