GIVING UP

i wrote this after i failed again in my oral exams... i got so depressed and i wanted to give up.

giving up what you've always wanted in life is indeed a very difficult thing to do...deciding on whether to go on or just give up is even harder...sometimes relying on fate as the one putting you to where you should be is good but i know hard work and determination is better.....failing once in an exam is accceptable for me....twice is already so shameful on my part i try to separate , isolate myself from the people around....consoling words dont matter...people dont really know how i feel....and i only got me to blame for my loss.....is it coz i lack the knowledge that i have supposedly learned for the several years that i had been in training...or is it because i lack the confidence to deal with a situation such as a verbal exam in front of examiners...or is it simply because the neurons in my brain are just that of a nitwit?My world,just as the song goes, typically gets smaller everyday...

meg havana

02 oct 05