The Tale of the Seven Boring Days
30 September
I just stayed home today…decided to take time off work…I consider myself on leave starting 28 sept until 29 oct….have to put everything on hold to prioritize the most important step im gonna take to becoming full-pledged in my line of work....no need to elaborate…I have tried it twice and landed on my butt twice…..now this is my 3rd time and im making sure I am doing my bestest!! to soar sky high…thus I will be now staying home and concentrate…...as if im good at that!
Coming here to write something is just to calm myself…and besides I miss talking to my buddy online so I had to be online, even for awhile, to be able to catch him….coz today is his birthday….he is 29….can’t miss that…..although, much to my disappointment….ive learned that its not a reciprocal thing…well, to err is human….to make a mistake of forgetting one’s birthday is …err times three…..unforgivable!....nah..just joking!....if youre a little bit confused, don’t worry, that makes two of us!i am kinda nuts …
Gotta go…...feelin guilty already….my tea’s gone cold…aargh!
01 oct 06
Sunday, bloody Sunday…today started out so well for me…..or at least it did, until….well, I woke up “not so late”, went straight to the so-called “garage” in front of the house cum sidewalk to most people who pass by our street and as usual, fed my pet …with diesel….surprised? u shudnt be…...my “pet” is not a breathing thing…..it only comes alive, goes and carries me everywhere when I feed it (its name? Xap)….hehehe…afterwhich I took a shower (to my surprise.. ..for almost an hour…..talk about becoming one of the ladies now eh….but no..never!),dressed up, walked my way to church (no need to bring my pet with me…the church is just a stone’s throw away),this without bringing anything with me except the clothes I donned(hear me….no dress…very loose, low rise maong jeans and a pink shirt which says “genuine babe 100%”) and of course the shades…so I sat down at a pew farthest from the altar(near ,far….same thing…I just dint wanna be noticed), waited for, like a lifetime for,those prayer with intentions(e.g. for the success of the cpa board exam of whoever,etc etc)to be announced before it finally ended.... and so it went, I heard mass…unfortunately the robed guy was talking about the pope and that disastrous passage…..and I thought ive had enough of that ,ive heard of that story for quite a time now already(CNN,BBC,TV Patrol,Bombo,Inday Michelle??hehe)…..so I imagined padre was singing and..... voila,his voice lulled me to sleep….but nope I actually didn’t…….i just played peek-a-boo (in secret)with this kid in front of me..who was just staring at me the whole time…made me think…what the hell’s wrong with me..it can't be this brown,scattered,ugly melasma thing on my cheeks…I mean its not like a handsome young guy is staring…it’s a barely 2-yr old tot…it kinda freaked me out…maybe he has never seen them braces before…yeah, thats probably it…anyway, so I just went with the flow, sang hymns then thought against it coz I remembered I forgot to brush my teeth before leaving…oh growse!!!...and an hour and a half later I was walking my way home…relieved to have beaten the odds and gone back to church for the first time in years! Yeah!.. ..and God probably heard me..he let some guys at the back of a car say hi to me while they passed by….of course I wasn’t strutting or something…..catwalking’s not my thing…and im too short…so my thoughts about it?..that it’s either I look too stupid for them to have the courage to do that..or I look good…nah…never!....or maybe..it’s the shirt Im wearing….hmmm!
Well....to make the story short…everything today went smoothly …except for one bloody thing which happened over the net….no need to expound on the issue but I got pissed off…I still am….well,I guess maybe it is my fault and now I cannot f------ concentrate..been reading a page 3 f------ times and I can’t comprehend what I’m reading!this brain is freakin’ doomed…pulped!blame it on me….i am just gonna sleep it off…
02 Oct. 06
Well……sleep..or the lack of it….hasn’t helped my mood when I woke up early….nothing to do…just the usual….i sound like a bum…..in fact, I think I am …nothing good to write….my shell’s empty today…drained like an energizer battery slave-worked for a week…going online every now and then….thinking of a worthwhile thing to do….sometimes it feels good to be idle…but I know it wont be so good for my pocket if this keeps going on…didn’t even watch tv….miss my being a couch potato…..going to the john all too often…blame it on the tea…downed some lechon manok with spanish bread…..nice combo..and feeling guilty afterwards for pigging out…chatted with my net buddies for like 10 only…and felt like I handled the day well….tough day for a bum like me……looking forward to 03.My,how time flies!i still don’t have the jitters and im puzzled.
03 Oct. 06
Cant help myself, I had to go to my workplace…..got tired of staring at the 4 corners of my room….it’s like life in incarceration……i really have to behave myself then coz I think life in prison is anything but a bed of roses…..unless, cors…my cellmate is went…i mean…id do anything bad(hell yeah!) provided I get to become cellmates with him….my dream guy….and it was good that I went there(workplace not prison)……I was greeted by the sight of food, glorious food…someone big was having a birthday and I grabbed some…..spaghetti, cake, ice cream, pansit, etc, etc….talk about pigging out again..uhhh…..id go on diet tomorrow then!
Another thing which made me decide to go out was I miss my pet…..and the loud booming sound of my subs….so I played avril’s cd on my way and loved it…someone just recently told me why sometimes I think im old and the other times I say im still young…I don’t know the answer…but when I did play the cd I felt super young….haha…like I wont be turning the big three five come 20…
04 Oct. 06
It’s my uncle’s bday today..yeah I did remember..but my tatay dodong has been long gone….defeated by cancer….yeah it’s in my blood, I should live a healthy life(although im not right now)…I used to remember him when he was healthy…but more when he got sick….i was still little then (well, im still little now)…he had a tube coming outa his chest…..i was puzzled then why was that so….one of the things which pushed me to strive and be the one to insert a chest tube on someone….and now I can do it…with eyes closed?.....nah….thats unthinkable……so,my uncle…im sure he’s at peace now…wherever God might have placed him….
Nothing new with me today…same old routine….went to workplace, faxed something,..and oh I did watch tv….news….new cd played on stereo….the one my buddy burned for me….the songs are supposed to be his favourites so i gotta listen…it’s not that I haven’t, I did play them before but still haven’t heard each song, theyre so many….i like track #63…..it puts me into a trance…actually, I like the songs I’ve heard so far…kinda like meditation songs, as he would put it, nice while driving……that’s about it….this is my fifth boring day…I wonder if ill ever get out of this?im crossing my fingers, hope itll be a better one tomorrow…gotta go…csi is coming up soon!
05 Oct. 06
Nah! it sure isn’t a better one today….its a little bit disappointing…..no actually it’s a big bit!As always, no need to expound…im storing the details in the recesses of my brain….cant divulge everything…..there are things better left unsaid..
Anyway, im having a backache now…..maybe from too much stooping…..and the fact that I haven’t been to the gym for 2 weeks now….i miss it very much..i miss the people there even more…. Im not so loud today, cant think of anything exciting to say…..my shoulders are a little bit slumped, I feel like the world’s against me, feel like something really bad is gonna happen soon….oh one thing, my sister is away….i kinda enjoy sleeping in the room alone, for a change….in my birthday suit!
Honestly, im really sad today….
06 oct o6
Houston we have a problem!....today is the 7th day of my so called deadening days…..so much time, so little to do…so much time to think about how my week went by, how I got irked and how dull I am…as usual…the girl woke up late, had a headache, downed some pill for it…went down,drank tea,went back up,stared at the ceiling..even the lizards aren’t in harmony with me…..theyre nowhere to be found….did something worthwhile, got bored again, went down, took a shower, ate hotdog, went online, nothing good came out, went back up,took a nap,…and finally ive had it….i am super duper bored I had to get out of the house!!!...just drove…listened to the boom on stereo…I burned some music I got from ares…madonna,weird al,teddy geiger(whoever he is!),Wilson Phillips…I cudnt listen to them all….nothin’s freakin going on…aaah…I am tired of this ho-hum! .....as the song goes...."things are going your way,hold on for one more day.."
30 September
I just stayed home today…decided to take time off work…I consider myself on leave starting 28 sept until 29 oct….have to put everything on hold to prioritize the most important step im gonna take to becoming full-pledged in my line of work....no need to elaborate…I have tried it twice and landed on my butt twice…..now this is my 3rd time and im making sure I am doing my bestest!! to soar sky high…thus I will be now staying home and concentrate…...as if im good at that!
Coming here to write something is just to calm myself…and besides I miss talking to my buddy online so I had to be online, even for awhile, to be able to catch him….coz today is his birthday….he is 29….can’t miss that…..although, much to my disappointment….ive learned that its not a reciprocal thing…well, to err is human….to make a mistake of forgetting one’s birthday is …err times three…..unforgivable!....nah..just joking!....if youre a little bit confused, don’t worry, that makes two of us!i am kinda nuts …
Gotta go…...feelin guilty already….my tea’s gone cold…aargh!
01 oct 06
Sunday, bloody Sunday…today started out so well for me…..or at least it did, until….well, I woke up “not so late”, went straight to the so-called “garage” in front of the house cum sidewalk to most people who pass by our street and as usual, fed my pet …with diesel….surprised? u shudnt be…...my “pet” is not a breathing thing…..it only comes alive, goes and carries me everywhere when I feed it (its name? Xap)….hehehe…afterwhich I took a shower (to my surprise.. ..for almost an hour…..talk about becoming one of the ladies now eh….but no..never!),dressed up, walked my way to church (no need to bring my pet with me…the church is just a stone’s throw away),this without bringing anything with me except the clothes I donned(hear me….no dress…very loose, low rise maong jeans and a pink shirt which says “genuine babe 100%”) and of course the shades…so I sat down at a pew farthest from the altar(near ,far….same thing…I just dint wanna be noticed), waited for, like a lifetime for,those prayer with intentions(e.g. for the success of the cpa board exam of whoever,etc etc)to be announced before it finally ended.... and so it went, I heard mass…unfortunately the robed guy was talking about the pope and that disastrous passage…..and I thought ive had enough of that ,ive heard of that story for quite a time now already(CNN,BBC,TV Patrol,Bombo,Inday Michelle??hehe)…..so I imagined padre was singing and..... voila,his voice lulled me to sleep….but nope I actually didn’t…….i just played peek-a-boo (in secret)with this kid in front of me..who was just staring at me the whole time…made me think…what the hell’s wrong with me..it can't be this brown,scattered,ugly melasma thing on my cheeks…I mean its not like a handsome young guy is staring…it’s a barely 2-yr old tot…it kinda freaked me out…maybe he has never seen them braces before…yeah, thats probably it…anyway, so I just went with the flow, sang hymns then thought against it coz I remembered I forgot to brush my teeth before leaving…oh growse!!!...and an hour and a half later I was walking my way home…relieved to have beaten the odds and gone back to church for the first time in years! Yeah!.. ..and God probably heard me..he let some guys at the back of a car say hi to me while they passed by….of course I wasn’t strutting or something…..catwalking’s not my thing…and im too short…so my thoughts about it?..that it’s either I look too stupid for them to have the courage to do that..or I look good…nah…never!....or maybe..it’s the shirt Im wearing….hmmm!
Well....to make the story short…everything today went smoothly …except for one bloody thing which happened over the net….no need to expound on the issue but I got pissed off…I still am….well,I guess maybe it is my fault and now I cannot f------ concentrate..been reading a page 3 f------ times and I can’t comprehend what I’m reading!this brain is freakin’ doomed…pulped!blame it on me….i am just gonna sleep it off…
02 Oct. 06
Well……sleep..or the lack of it….hasn’t helped my mood when I woke up early….nothing to do…just the usual….i sound like a bum…..in fact, I think I am …nothing good to write….my shell’s empty today…drained like an energizer battery slave-worked for a week…going online every now and then….thinking of a worthwhile thing to do….sometimes it feels good to be idle…but I know it wont be so good for my pocket if this keeps going on…didn’t even watch tv….miss my being a couch potato…..going to the john all too often…blame it on the tea…downed some lechon manok with spanish bread…..nice combo..and feeling guilty afterwards for pigging out…chatted with my net buddies for like 10 only…and felt like I handled the day well….tough day for a bum like me……looking forward to 03.My,how time flies!i still don’t have the jitters and im puzzled.
03 Oct. 06
Cant help myself, I had to go to my workplace…..got tired of staring at the 4 corners of my room….it’s like life in incarceration……i really have to behave myself then coz I think life in prison is anything but a bed of roses…..unless, cors…my cellmate is went…i mean…id do anything bad(hell yeah!) provided I get to become cellmates with him….my dream guy….and it was good that I went there(workplace not prison)……I was greeted by the sight of food, glorious food…someone big was having a birthday and I grabbed some…..spaghetti, cake, ice cream, pansit, etc, etc….talk about pigging out again..uhhh…..id go on diet tomorrow then!
Another thing which made me decide to go out was I miss my pet…..and the loud booming sound of my subs….so I played avril’s cd on my way and loved it…someone just recently told me why sometimes I think im old and the other times I say im still young…I don’t know the answer…but when I did play the cd I felt super young….haha…like I wont be turning the big three five come 20…
04 Oct. 06
It’s my uncle’s bday today..yeah I did remember..but my tatay dodong has been long gone….defeated by cancer….yeah it’s in my blood, I should live a healthy life(although im not right now)…I used to remember him when he was healthy…but more when he got sick….i was still little then (well, im still little now)…he had a tube coming outa his chest…..i was puzzled then why was that so….one of the things which pushed me to strive and be the one to insert a chest tube on someone….and now I can do it…with eyes closed?.....nah….thats unthinkable……so,my uncle…im sure he’s at peace now…wherever God might have placed him….
Nothing new with me today…same old routine….went to workplace, faxed something,..and oh I did watch tv….news….new cd played on stereo….the one my buddy burned for me….the songs are supposed to be his favourites so i gotta listen…it’s not that I haven’t, I did play them before but still haven’t heard each song, theyre so many….i like track #63…..it puts me into a trance…actually, I like the songs I’ve heard so far…kinda like meditation songs, as he would put it, nice while driving……that’s about it….this is my fifth boring day…I wonder if ill ever get out of this?im crossing my fingers, hope itll be a better one tomorrow…gotta go…csi is coming up soon!
05 Oct. 06
Nah! it sure isn’t a better one today….its a little bit disappointing…..no actually it’s a big bit!As always, no need to expound…im storing the details in the recesses of my brain….cant divulge everything…..there are things better left unsaid..
Anyway, im having a backache now…..maybe from too much stooping…..and the fact that I haven’t been to the gym for 2 weeks now….i miss it very much..i miss the people there even more…. Im not so loud today, cant think of anything exciting to say…..my shoulders are a little bit slumped, I feel like the world’s against me, feel like something really bad is gonna happen soon….oh one thing, my sister is away….i kinda enjoy sleeping in the room alone, for a change….in my birthday suit!
Honestly, im really sad today….
06 oct o6
Houston we have a problem!....today is the 7th day of my so called deadening days…..so much time, so little to do…so much time to think about how my week went by, how I got irked and how dull I am…as usual…the girl woke up late, had a headache, downed some pill for it…went down,drank tea,went back up,stared at the ceiling..even the lizards aren’t in harmony with me…..theyre nowhere to be found….did something worthwhile, got bored again, went down, took a shower, ate hotdog, went online, nothing good came out, went back up,took a nap,…and finally ive had it….i am super duper bored I had to get out of the house!!!...just drove…listened to the boom on stereo…I burned some music I got from ares…madonna,weird al,teddy geiger(whoever he is!),Wilson Phillips…I cudnt listen to them all….nothin’s freakin going on…aaah…I am tired of this ho-hum! .....as the song goes...."things are going your way,hold on for one more day.."
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