Yup..today is Good Friday...which, to me, means that I have to stay home and do absolutely nothing unless, I get called in for some job to be done at work as what the life of someone like me entails, being on-call 24/7.When I was still a little girl, the Lenten Season used to be a busy one for me. After all I get to be the star angel during "SUGAT" time, for which I need to practice a lot of songs for the event prior to Easter Sunday. Being THE star angel means I get to be the chosen angel to lift off Mama Mary's black veil and change it with a white one when she & Jesus meet after He gets resurrected on easter morning. My mother would then let me sleep at 7pm on Black Saturday in preparation for my big appearance! and she wakes me up at 10 to get ready to go to the "sugat" area and then I get to wear my angel costume complete with wings strapped on my back which, to be honest, made me so uncomfortable...but the little girl never complained, because as I had said, I loved being "the star".And it wasn't just that, for like 5 yrs in a row, being a star angel means I have to be hoisted up into space, at that time I thought I was high enough to be in heaven...with pulleys,hinges,buckles,cable & all wrapped around me. I stay up there before the re-enactment happens until the procession meets up,with Jesus & Mama Mary below, at which time I get lowered down while blurting the songs I had practiced weeks before....Sometimes I wonder if child labor/welfare would agree with what the adults made me do, if they were already active when I was a kid..
But I enjoyed those times...I certainly miss those times...when after changing the veil I throw out flower petals down and people scramble to get them for their keeping...for whatever reason, up to now it's still a mystery to me. But my mother used to tell me that the flowers I spread were blessed and so these have like some sort of a healing power,miraculous so to speak...and I used to like the idea that the flowers came from my hands but most of all, selfish as it may seem to be, I was a star!I used to be stripped off of my right to play in the afternoon during practice time and as much as i wanted to be with my cousins whom I see at a distant playing along the beach, I wasn't able to since it was honing time and I had to do the songs to perfection...just like an angel would!How I wish I can go back and be an angel again...be as innocent as I was before and not as sensible as I am now, not wise enough to understand what's going on around us, around the world, to make me get sad and disappointed with it! Not prudent enough to opt not to go to church to hear mass on this Good Friday for the shallow reason that it is so hot and the church becomes so crowded! I acknowledge this is not at all a good conviction coming from someone who was once a star angel on Easter!
by meg havana 06 Apr 2007
But I enjoyed those times...I certainly miss those times...when after changing the veil I throw out flower petals down and people scramble to get them for their keeping...for whatever reason, up to now it's still a mystery to me. But my mother used to tell me that the flowers I spread were blessed and so these have like some sort of a healing power,miraculous so to speak...and I used to like the idea that the flowers came from my hands but most of all, selfish as it may seem to be, I was a star!I used to be stripped off of my right to play in the afternoon during practice time and as much as i wanted to be with my cousins whom I see at a distant playing along the beach, I wasn't able to since it was honing time and I had to do the songs to perfection...just like an angel would!How I wish I can go back and be an angel again...be as innocent as I was before and not as sensible as I am now, not wise enough to understand what's going on around us, around the world, to make me get sad and disappointed with it! Not prudent enough to opt not to go to church to hear mass on this Good Friday for the shallow reason that it is so hot and the church becomes so crowded! I acknowledge this is not at all a good conviction coming from someone who was once a star angel on Easter!
by meg havana 06 Apr 2007
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