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28 August 2007
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27 August 2007
true friendship
26 aug 07 by meg havana you know how I’m fond of posting items in my blog…if I have time I search for articles that I can relate to and publish it in one of the many networking sites I’m signed up as a member….it was a week ago that I posted one article about true friendship that I had just copied somewhere…I usually get encouraging, positive comments from the friends I got on that site, although I have not received any for this one…but a few days after I posted that particular one, I got this comment from a person who isn’t even in my friends’ list and who obviously doesn’t want to be identified since he only has numbers as his id on his page…he told me that what I posted was inaccurate, not to burst my bubble…that I shouldn’t be writing things about friendship lasting a lifetime because, I , myself has not yet lasted a lifetime….that he didn’t wanna be rude but he thinks all relationships, be it friendship, or even marriage, would NEVER last long, implying that friendships would always turn sour ……he further went on telling me that for me to really know best about friendships and relationships, I should be reading an article or something written by Tolstoy (of which he misspelled as Toltoy) and some other guy the name of whom was unfamiliar to me. My initial reaction to that comment was one of confusion…I posted that blog hoping that anyone will be inspired by it especially my newfound friends who I’ve never met personally…I never expected a comment of that sort and I didn’t find anything wrong with saying these: True friendship only needs a few key ingredients: Undying loyalty, unmatched understanding, unsurpassed trust, Deep and soulful secrets, and endless sharing. These ingredients, mixed with personality and a sense of humor, Can make a friendship last a lifetime! For all I know, Tolstoy wrote this. But anyway, for me, I don’t need to read anyone’s work to find meaning to the word friendship…and I disagree with the guy when he said most friendships end without lasting a lifetime. yes, I admit, I have not yet lasted a lifetime but for me, from the time my mom delivered me out into this world until this day is already considered my lifetime and I may be inexperienced when it comes to poetry but I don’t have to rely on someone else’s remarks to get me through my life and my relationship with the people I come to know as friends… So instead of creating tension between him and me by replying to that comment, I decided against it and ignored him. And that’s the reason I am pouring out my feelings by writing this today. And as I am writing this, I started to guess that guy must be one hell of a miserable individual…he must be all alone in this world thinking that friends will not aide him in any way through the ups and downs of life…and with this thought in mind, instead of getting angry with him, I am now filled with thoughts of pity for that guy. And so I think I am still one of those fortunate people who happen to have true friends that will last a lifetime…after all, no man is an island. |
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25 August 2007
how do i?
it was one fine sunny day in March 2003 that we met. the moment i set my eyes on him i knew he was the one for me. it's not just because of his masculine looks even with his fair white skin but something in him made me feel so good that i wanted him so badly. and so it went that we have been together since then...i learned about his past and his previous relationships but i didn't seem to care. all i cared about was how much i love my baby and how cute i would look in his arms. everyone in my family loved him too...my parents, siblings and even my nephews...and like me, they also look forward to spending time with him.
like all relationships, there are always some bumpy rides. he was even a source of a petty rift between me and my brother but as i had said, i love my baby dearly...he is always there when i need him, even getting soaked in the rain or burned under the heat of the sun just to wait for me...and he seldom make qualms about it...he keeps me calm when the going gets tough and he brings me to heights even i couldn't even imagine reaching.
but my fairytale doesn't end there...lately, i can see signs that he seems to be at a losing end...maybe his past is getting into him and he is slowly losing his grip tantamounting to him always getting sick...i don't know if i can take it anymore...i vowed not to leave him and keep him by my side until the very end...i love my baby so much it hurts to even decide to let go....yet with this situation i feel i have to say goodbye....but how can i
how can i say goodbye to my mitsubishi pajero?...yeah,i'm talking about my ride, what else?..sorry to deceive y'all!...i just feel that my baby deserves to be blogged about...i cant deny that with time it will become a burden rather than an asset judging by me frequenting my auto shop for repairs and so on...although it sounds weird but i am really attached to the vehicle, after all it is one of the first few things i had from my hard-earned money...and as such it's a tough decision for me to make to have to trade it in for another one, i can't even imagine seeing someone else driving it in the future because as i had said...i really do love my baby! ...
i apologize for being weird and making the reader think i'm referring to a person....but i guess we can write whatever we feel like writing...and i feel i need to honor the object of my affection.jpg)
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19 August 2007
DONUTS
speaking about interests...well, nothing really got my attention today save for the fact that i went to the gym, which is nothing quite surprising with me since i regularly do it, even on a Sunday like today. As usual with Sundays, I ended ,or should I stay, started waking up late. Then i practically did nothing except watch anything on tv until i felt the prickly heat of noontime at which i realized it was shower time!..then while in the shower i pondered whether to just stay at home and waste the day alone or go to the gym for a chance to get to see another soul and besides i am really so down with how i am tending to lose my disicipline resulting to my pigging out and gaining too much weight than what i should just be...so i ended up doing the latter...and off i drove.i was glad i did, because it made me a lot lighter i think not only physically but in spirit....well, it gave me the chance to eat a donut which i had been craving for since this morning after watching those dunkin donuts commercials on tv and i felt satisfied...
aah, my mundane life...is this how it is when you're getting old and alone?...hope i have the will to face another 35 years of eating donut alone....
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Somethin' About...
As I recall, everything went smoothly, bid my family farewell, I’ll be back home in 3 weeks’ time anyway, checked my ticket, passport, money and of course the all too important mobile phone…which should be on roaming mode. With “all systems go” for me, I stepped right inside for a 4-hour flight to Singapore which will connect my flight to Sydney for a gruelling 6 hours. However, before we got to SNG, we had a short stop in another local city to fetch some more passengers so it came to be that my flight was a bit delayed. I got a little worried because supposedly upon arrival in SNG I only had one hour before my next flight but if this one gets delayed, the plane to Sydney might leave without me…dumb thought, but anyway, I was brave enough to ask the airline lady if I can still make it to my next flight and yup, my thought was purely nonsensical…since my baggage was already checked in on my next flight, that plane cannot leave without me in it…whew! Still, I got worried…but anyways, since I wasn’t seated on a window seat, I always chose that preferably, I don’t know why but maybe I’m really claustrophobic…I just made friends with the two women on each of my side: the one on my left turned out to be an immigration lawyer from Brisbane, and on my right was a nurse from France…but they are both Pinays, like me. They sounded so happy and proud of their accomplishments, I was saying like, “oh yeah”, “wow”, “that’s great” to both. Just because I didn’t go somewhere to seek greener pastures like they do, doesn’t mean I’m not successful too and have nothing to say….but no, I was just silent, they didn’t even bother to ask about me, anyway. In the end, the lawyer handed me her calling card, since we almost have the same destination, she in Brisbane, me in Sydney…and told me to give her a call if I get time to go to Brisbane, promised to show me around if I do visit....and it was even sweet of her to accompany me to the gate where I’m supposed to check in…since the Changi airport is so darn huge, there was a lump in my throat just trying to look for the flight I have to Sydney…as in OMG!..
the thing about being late is you never get to wait…so when I arrived everyone in my flight was checked in and in 30 minutes off we went…at that instant, I felt like, am I dreaming or is this for real?...and again, I didn’t get the privilege of a window seat, so I sat next to a young Thai guy, tried to make conversation with him but couldn’t quite get his English accent so I stopped. I only learned that he is studying in a university in Sydney. On my right was also a young man probably Indian, but well, he never hinted that he wanted to speak to me so I did not bother him and he just went around with watching movies on the screen in front of our seats. One thing though, he always called the stewardess for wine and so on the 2nd hour of our flight, he was sound asleep as evidenced by the snore. Me? I could not sleep…I had mixed emotions…I got really excited, nervous, happy, sad, all sorts but not sleepy. I watched every darn movie shown in-house and I initially tinkered with the remote gadget since I had no idea how to operate it, I didn’t even have a clue how to take it out of the arm rest…so I just observed the Thai guy and followed suit, not wanting to be known that I’m as dumb as me…haha…but I survived that and I did enjoy the movies. Not one instance did I leave my seat to go to the lavatory even if my “red tide” was on first day that day. Can you imagine? I just sat there for the whole length of my 6-hour flight.
When I arrived in Sydney, I thought “I can now relax and that the worse is over”, my flight was uneventful and I am now officially a tourist!
Little did I know that I was in for a big surprise….simply because of my being a first-timer and most especially because of the color of my passport…with the word PILIPINAS on it. I was whisked to immigration together with another Pinay, and I was interviewed by an officer, who was, herself a Filipina, but with an Australian citizenship…she was asking me all sorts of questions which later on kinda annoyed me because the way she did it was like she’s accusing me of something…in my mind I was like, “hello, I have no plans of overstaying in your country, I have a return ticket already, and I am a professional, you shouldn’t be treating me like I’m some kind of a suspect or something”…and most of all, have a heart, you are a Filipina yourself. It actually didn’t take longer than 20 minutes and so I was relieved when she let me go. My whole life I have never been treated like that but then I know she was just doing her job…after all, they can never be too careful, I have heard that we (being from the Philippines) are noted to overstay and live illegally in their country…so I just shrugged it off and went on to claim my luggage which took me so long to retrieve but then I noticed that I had to report to customs any food or beverage that I brought and unfortunately for me, I brought some for my hosts, of course…so off I went, queuing with the others to reach that counter where everything is inspected manually and through x-ray. Although ours was the first flight to arrive that morning, judging from the scarcity of people inside, because of that side trip to immigration and the long time I spent in finding my bag, I now was mixed with passengers from other flights, people who seemed to be always in a hurry, who didn’t even bother to stay on the line…and I thought this happens only in the Philippines…but anyway, after probably a gruesome 10 minutes of lining up, it was finally my turn…
An oversized, 40-something lady entertained me, same as in immigration, she asked me the same questions in the same accusing manner, which was kinda annoying since of course I am an innocent, first-timer, tourist who happened to choose their country as a holiday destination. All the more because I seemed to have lost the key to my luggage, so she patiently went somewhere and came back with this so huge cutter she looked like she was going to cut me though she ended up breaking down the lock. Then the all too consuming part of emptying everything I packed in my luggage, my carry-on and my pockets, looking through every piece of paper in my wallet, even asking “how come I hold clinic in the afternoon and not in the morning “which I dutifully answered with “obviously since I do operations in the morning that’s why I have my clinic time at 3pm” to which she just nodded her head in affirmation. Then I made a mistake of bringing along some surgical journals I thought of perusing whenever I can during my stay, which I thought would be helpful since I was due for an oral exam in Surgery in 3 months’ time. She scanned those and asked me why I brought those along and kinda hinted to me that probably the reason that I came here was to take an exam, that there’s a possibility that I was looking for work here. I was almost to my boiling point, I mean, my goodness, I have a stable job back home, the reason I came here was just to visit, they issued me a tourist visa good for one month which I won’t even consume based on the date of my return ticket… “if you doubted my persona in the first place then you shouldn’t have allowed me entry in your country” but don’t get me wrong I just said that to myself. Not all Filipinos want greener pasture outside the 7,107 islands. Spare me, I’m one of those Pinoys who still want to live in my own backyard no matter how difficult times are now…. and I even had the thought that if they are going to deport me right this instant I would be most willing to obey, I miss home already since no one at home treats me like they treat me here. And so it came to be that I was stuck there for almost two hours, bombarding me with sometimes stupid questions, wanting to extract something from me, treating me like I’m some kind of a criminal, but then again I kept my cool and thought these people are just doing their job and they mean nothing personal. I am just so sensitive and I just wasn’t expecting that rude a welcome.
Anyways, I almost hug the woman when she finally released me….and when I looked around I realized I was the only one left in that area, all the others were gone. I guess I was the only one held up. So, I stacked all of my belongings back into my big bag and retrieved what I thought was everything. I then went out of that section and found myself in the lobby with some well wishers and a lot of people. I looked everywhere but could not find a familiar face. I was supposed to be fetched by my host two hours earlier…and so I started to panic, I reached for my cell phone and looked up her number to call her that I had arrived, I surmised that she might have left already, probably had gotten tired of waiting for me to arrive and when everyone else had come out and my face hadn’t showed up, she probably had left, after all it had been two hours already since the supposed time of my arrival. But luck wasn’t really with me that day, I remembered that I hadn’t registered her number in my mobile and that I had written it on a piece of paper which I tucked inside my wallet. So I went to a bench outside the airport and found out how cold it was in Sydney in June…so again I rummaged my luggage for another jacket I brought to make me warmer…I had never experienced winter before…I lived all my life in a tropical place….then I realized I couldn’t find my wallet, where I placed her phone number….tough luck! Now I really began to panic. I searched every inch of my luggage and my pockets but to no avail…I felt like fainting at that moment. But then I saw a guy in uniform who looked like a security officer or something so I grabbed all my belongings and started to walk towards the guy, who unfortunately was also walking away from me…with all those people coming and going I surmised I probably couldn’t get through to him….and to my amazement …and pure relief, I bumped into one person for which when I looked up I saw this oh so familiar face….Eden, my host….OMG was I happy, I could just jump with relief when I saw her! It came about that she and her husband were there earlier than my time of arrival, and they even brought the kids with them, they woke up early drove a couple of miles to the airport to meet me and they had waited, they almost left thinking I wasn’t on that flight which they expected me to be in and Eden just went back one last time to make sure I really wasn’t around before they decide to go back home. So I related everything that went on and lastly, that I could not find my wallet…all my credit cards were there and my IDs. They then brought me to an information counter, the attendant of which, wasn’t so rude and was even very accommodating…again I related my tale and good for me coz I remembered the woman at customs by the nameplate that she wore…Cynthia. So he called her up, and she came running down there in a matter of minutes, handing me back my wallet which she said got hidden near the x-ray machine that’s why I wasn’t able to see it….all these happened in that instant of my arrival in Sydney…to me it was verging on disaster but thanks to my composure and probably heaven’s intervention…all went well in the end. Cynthia even wished me an enjoyable holiday.
Even with this experience, I still wanna go back if time allows. The rest of my 3-week stay was enjoyable and unforgettable…when I went to Melbourne after my stay in Sydney, I got on a domestic flight…it wasn’t so strict since it wasn’t international but the airport personnel did bring me to a spot where they tested my clothes and hands for bomb residue…and I just mumbled to myself, “do I look like a terrorist to you, seems like you look more like one than me?”…but again…doing their job..put that in mind….and when they fed it to the computer I was released…well, the only bomb I have is the bomb I deposit inside the toilet regularly, I don’t know if I got residue of that in my hands since I wash them each time.
Going back home after that was relatively uneventful. They were probably glad to get rid of one possible illegal alien in their country.
Anyway, that was my tale….my first time to travel away from home and my confidence and patience were truly tested, but boy, have I survived!
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17 August 2007
jesus take the wheel
im not sure what in this song moves me so much it never fails to make me cry each time i hear it...and especially with a voice like Ms. Underwood's...it's just should i say, heavenly?
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friday blues
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14 August 2007
one fine day
For the many times that I go to the pier either to fetch my parents or to send them off back to our town, the guard in Pier 1 would always give me a hard time, in the sense that the one on duty there would not allow me to park in the designated area. At first, I tried to negotiate especially when I arrive in the pier earlier than the time of arrival of the fast craft my parents are in or when the waves are like mountain high that the boat would come in later than expected and I really have to wait… and so he would let me park with a warning that I should stay inside the vehicle with my engine running with the reason that it is prohibited to park in their parking area….At times, the guard would just simply blurt out that it’s a no parking zone when obviously it is, judging from the other vehicles that are parked there and so when I argue to him about that, he would then let me park because he cannot say otherwise…..this morning when I was there , by golly, I totally wasn’t allowed to park at all, and to think I really have to help my elderly parents settle down, I cannot imagine them bringing their luggage in such a long distance. In times like these, it always makes me think why they are treating people like the way they did me. I mean, I religiously pay my taxes, which for a newbie like me, seems to be skyrocketing high, I am law-abiding and thus I think I deserve to be treated the treatment due me because I am a good citizen of this country. How can this government-owned establishment deny the right that is due me? It really breaks my heart that I cannot even park my ride in my own city where a portion of my earnings would go, sometimes I feel I am a foreigner in my own country I cannot even enjoy the rights I have as a citizen.
But despite this negative feelings of mine, I do love Cebu, I love this country and I have no plans of going somewhere!So, does this mean i shouldn't be grumbling?
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10 August 2007
in the absence of a lullaby
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07 August 2007
a stale tale
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06 August 2007
thanks...harry potter!!
i'd always thought i am alone in this site....geez...i was kinda stunned when i got back from vacation and opened this blog and saw 5 comments in my latest article,one an english translation of the same comment in spanish....i thank these people for the efforts they made....making one soul feel that they are there even if they do not know the former....for me, it's kinda heroic...i don't know..but guys,thank you really from the bottom of my heart...although honestly i am really embarrassed...yep, because as i had said, i never thought someone else will bother to read and so i poured out everything i felt that day and it's kinda embarrassing to have someone breeze through.
well anyway, what's done is done...and i'm feeling a lot less negative. although i still feel bitter but it's a little less now than previously...maybe i just needed a timely break from my mundane life and it helped me focus on other,more positive things in life...i did a little bit of shopping, too much dining!,and watched the last harry potter sequel in an Imax theatre which means it's being shown on 3D. I was never a harry potter fan, i watched the first movie and i slept inside the theatre...but with 3D, who doesn't want to stay up the whole length of the film, besides feeling the thrill ,you have to be awake for the whole show, you paid 2x the usual amount for a movie...so i shouldn't move a muscle and i didn't.
so thats about it for today...and again, a million thanks for the comments, it meant a lot to me...and yup thanks too, to the harry potter movie , emptied my pocket but made my day!
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