in the absence of a lullaby

can't really think of anything to blog today....its 12mn, i still can't sleep although i already tried to crawl into bed earlier but "no can do". Since i lost my cable connection in my bedroom tv more than a month ago, i had been having quite a hard time sleeping. It isn't that i wasn't able to pay the cable bills but last month the provider started installing what they call encryption boxes to the usual cable tv connection because of all these illegal tapping going on in every corner of the city and they try to solve this problem by encrypting all the channels shown unique only to a certain tv unit. Since mine is just an extension from the main one down in the living room, i decided not to have my tv installed with one and decided to just watch local channels instead although i had always known that it's always tv that puts me to sleep,it's my lullaby so ever since i lost the connection and settled on watching locals it has been difficult especially since our local channels sign off after midnight except on weekends. Since then while lying in bed, i just end up playing games in my mobile with my favorite being text twist which fortunately can also lull me to sleep although i never find the game boring. Maybe I had this craving for tv because when i grew up, there was no tv in our household. I remember me and my cousins going to a neighbor's house who owned one just to watch our favorite soap opera or watch this noontime local variety show in order for us to copy some dance steps which we can use for our own. At times, we got barked at by dogs on our way there or get cold stares from the owner, probably because we smelt bad already from playing after school. So now that i have one it's like i treasure every moment i spend time watching tv shows. It's the same thing with my stuffed toys...although i am already 30-something i am still hung up with buying those because when i was young my parents couldn't afford to buy me one and i never asked for one because i was aware that it isn't a necessity. But now, i got all sorts of stuffed toys, some i bought, others given to me as a gift.

So right this instant, i'm thinking of applying for that box installation....when you have gotten used to something it's very difficult to break it...and i miss watching the shows i like...movies on HBO,etc....tv series on AXN...music on MTV and of course news on CNN..and never forget kiddie shows on Disney Channel. Yup, just like the stuff toy thingy, i do watch Disney...actually i'm still a kid at heart.