im back here..it's a new year yet i have the same outlook in life, i.e. negative and depressed...my last blog here was like 4months ago and i had never opened this site since then...it's not because i got tired of it but i just didn't think there's something worthwhile to write...my life has been shitty since 4 months ago, details i prefer to bury in my memory bank...my sadness is growing everyday, there's no one to confide and even the person i trust with my life has preferred to stay on the sidelines and left me all alone.
now i have no one to turn to...i feel so down today because of something i had just discovered and as much as i want to just keep it to myself i really want to burst that's why i am here..to just let it all out so that i can feel better....
now i am pretty sure there is no future for me. there are just some dreams that remain to be just dreams and no matter how you hope and you try hard to achieve it, you will realize that it is such an impossible aspiration.
how i wish i could turn back time ...to the time when life was still less complicated...when the sun would always shine each and every morning when i wake up, when even the rain brings a smile to my face, when the person most important to me makes me his priority.
right now, it is deep hurt that im feeling...it's darkness all over that not anyone can undo....yet i always put up a happy face for everyone which makes my life much difficult.
i think i can't be helped. maybe this is my destiny.maybe it's my curse.
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