sigh

maybe i am having this identity crisis. i do not know what to do with myself. i feel so inadequate.geez, i seem to have endless problems and to think they're all minor ones. i gotta shape up. reinvent myself. yet i dont have the drive to do that. no inspiration. i hate myself today. i have accomplished nothing. i feel down and alone. and it is almost christmas. i dont know what to do. so stagnant. cobwebs. rusty!!!