Makati. It's busy and bustling yet i am here with an empty mind and all i wanna do is get back home to Cebu. Three days of being unproductive makes me long for something busy and bustling myself. I do not know really where to put myself. Being called a bitch by someone dearest to me makes me crawl down into earth and disappear. But it is true. I am one. And i am even more than just that. At 40 I am a loser. At this point in time, I am alone. I feel like i did nothing worthwhile in that span of time and I just wanna disappear into thin air. I dont really know what to do with myself. I dont have the will to go on right now. There's nothing out there for me. Coming here only made matters worse for me. I only got myself to blame for all things that happened. I wanna sleep but i just cant. I am so freakin' tired of myself!
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