yes, the clock just struck 2am , 4th of September 2013. I should be in my bed, sleeping but here I am, wide awake. I have been thinking of my life and the things, the people and just about everything I have left behind. I am surprised I really do not miss it an awful lot, even though I have been there my whole life. I just feel like being with Andrew is the most natural thing to be. What I am yearning for though is to be able to get a job here in this new world I am in, to keep me going and because for me this is but the normal thing to do. I have always been financially independent and it disheartens me when I do not have enough money to sustain my needs, especially now that my savings is dwindling and I still have no idea where I am at this stage in my life when it comes to working. I really want to get a job now and earn for my own and for my husband as well. My only dream is to be able to have a shelter of my own and to be able to travel the whole world before I die. I came here to be with my hubby and of course I was thinking this place is greener. I am dismayed by the fact that it is very very difficult for me as a doctor to be able to work here as one and this is the only work I know I can do as I had dedicated myself to serve humanity with the skills I attained from lots of years of studying and training. Yet, as I am from a 3rd world country, my skills and training are not comparable to what they have here. Weeks and weeks of internet research and job applications, of which all were turned down, made me feel hopeless so much so that at times I feel like I just want to go back home and resume what I was doing. But I am already here, I chosed to be here so I really have to make the most of it. But where do I start? I am really so disappointed and scared that I may not make it. I really want to get on my feet now. I feel a lot of pressure, from his family, from my family even though they never pressure me but I still feel it within. I wanna be successful. I wanna be someone. I am hoping I can be a successful someone one of these days!cross my fingers!
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