26 August 2012

today

26 august 2012. sitting outside at the al fresco in our favorite hangout coffee shop , hubby noticed that one of the cars parked there had his engine running. we initially tolerated it but some minutes later it tended to become annoying. yes, the area may be open but still, we were still breathing the fumes the pickup truck was emitting plus the fact that it was very loud and cannot be ignored. as we were the ones seated closest to it, i went over to inform the guard on duty about it and if he could please do something about it because it is not really healthy. i was really thinking how irresponsible it is for this driver to let the engine run when there are patrons in the shop. when i approached the guard, he only told me that there was someone inside the car so i further said to him that car is already annoying and that it should be turned off and then the guard said that the car is owned by a certain cebu city councilor and he gave me the impression that he was scared to get his attention because of who the driver was. well, i told him to just approach him calmly and tell him some customers request if he can turn the car off.luckily he did.
it has always been like this in our country... we treat our politicians like they are royalty and we are scared to get their attention just because they are who they are. and the same thing goes for those in power, sometimes they feel like they are above the law, that they can do anything just because. they claim to be servants of the people yet they want to be treated as kings!
how i long for the day to come when they,as politicians, would really act like servants.. but then it is just wishful thinking!

03 August 2012

nothing in store

Makati. It's busy and bustling yet i am here with an empty mind and all i wanna do is get back home to Cebu. Three days of being unproductive makes me long for something busy and bustling myself. I do not know really where to put myself. Being called a bitch by someone dearest to me makes me crawl down into earth and disappear. But it is true. I am one. And i am even more than just that. At 40 I am a loser. At this point in time, I am alone. I feel like i did nothing worthwhile in that span of time and I just wanna disappear into thin air. I dont really know what to do with myself. I dont have the will to go on right now. There's nothing out there for me. Coming here only made matters worse for me. I only got myself to blame for all things that happened. I wanna sleep but i just cant. I am so freakin' tired of myself!